When Depression is Manageable

Trigger warning: self-harm and suicide ideation. My moods have been quite mercurial lately. I went from relative stability to hypomania to mild depression in a matter of less than one week. The hypomania was triggered by getting fewer than seven hours of sleep two nights in a row. I need at least eight to nine […]

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From Mixed to Depressed to “Normal”

I am back from my unscheduled week-long hiatus. I was experiencing a mild-to-moderate depression last week after discontinuing the new psychiatric medication I was taking, and I was not feeling up to writing a blog post every day. I quit taking the medication because I was having a mixed episode, where I experience mania and […]

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My Emotional Support Cat Kept Me Alive

In June 2013, my wife and I adopted our first cat together. Her name is Hershey’s Kisses, a short-haired tortoiseshell who was about 1 ½ years old when we adopted her. I fell in love with Hershey the moment I met her, and I think she loved me, too, because she snuzzled (a combination of […]

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How to Stay Productive When You Have a Mental Health Condition

I’m very productive at work on my best days, and at least mildly productive when I am not having such a great mental health day. I will always get the high priority items finished in a timely manner when I am at work no matter what condition I am in, but some days are truly […]

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My Pregnancy Will Be Very Much Planned

I want at least one child someday. I feel that I am close to emotionally ready to have a child, and I would jump right in to reproduction if I could. However, my wife is transgender, and she is unable to produce genetic material, so we need to try alternative methods of conceiving. One option […]

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I Consider Myself Lucky

Trigger warning: brief mention of suicide attempts I am lucky to be alive and to be where I am in my life. I am not exactly where I thought I would be when I envisioned life in my 30s back in my 20s, but I am a lot further along than I was in my […]

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Happiness Exists in the Present Moment

I believe that lack of happiness is, in part, a scourge of capitalist societies, especially in the United States, which is where I live. I am in a country that places value on careers and physical stuff. We are always in pursuit of happiness — the right job, the right partner, the dream home, the […]

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Chronic Pain and Mental Health

I have had plantar fasciitis in my left foot since September 2018. I believe I developed it because I was walking a lot during my lunch break, and all of a sudden, I increased my walking from one mile to two miles in one standing. I loved the walk, but it eventually took a toll […]

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How to Find the Right Medications If You Have Bipolar Disorder

Trigger warning: suicidal ideation, suicide attempt I have been on medications since I was 14 years old, when I was misdiagnosed with major depression. I was prescribed Prozac, which is in a class of antidepressants called selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs). When I was taking Prozac in high school, my mood felt really high, which […]

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My Experience with Electroconvulsive Therapy

Trigger warning: Suicidal and self-harm ideation, and needles. In the years 2012 through 2014, I sought psychiatric help at a medical center who had residents who rotated once a year. Thus, I had three different psychiatric residents during my tenure there. The one I had there in 2014 was all about the latest research. I […]

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